Waiting For Azure - sky..

this morning..started out the day by waking up at 9..SO EARLY..for my record..hehe..stay up late last night..hitting the tutorials…to help refresh my "fulled mind"…

this morning..i am going to pray for my grandad…due to the cheng beng’s festival…my parents were not expecting me to go at first…coz..they thought i will just stay at home and study..but..i just need to get out for a while..aways from the books…plus…this kind of family occasion..for me is quite important..personally…almost every year..i will not give any excuse to myself..for not attending….but i am glad i did go today..

firstly..gathered at my granny’s house..dunno why is it bcoz of the heat(sunny morning) or busy schedule today..makes my uncle and my aunt a bit moody..they just always have the reason to argue over silly stuff..and blah blah…and i just can’t help laughing…no big deal..arguments like that always end up with a silly laugh..that’s why..no matter how gloomy and down i am..when i am back here..they always manage to make my day look better…my 2 cousin sis..had grown up a lot..but have only miss them for 3 months…haha…my mum and I have promised to bring them to the movies..nxt weekend..and they even gave me their handphone number to call them for the time and day…imagine…2 primary school kids..with handphone..gosh..am i envy..haha…

just finished watching emily rose for the second time..my only programme for the whole day..what a success…maybe coz..2nd april is around the corner..my very important test..so…need to work hard for the final details..nt sure why..i have known the movie so well..all the scary and eerie details..mostly..but still the movie manage to make me slightly uncomfortable till now…

monday is here soon…just hope that no more mind blocking…too anxious….complications..and what so ever..just wish everything is almost perfect..almost..is enough…i just hate this kind of determination day…just wish one day..someone great will "popped" out..and ban all the exams..and tests…..and said..: study for knowledge..for ur own good..sigh..no use to start dreaming of this kind of things to happen..better start burning the midnight oil now..all the oil left….

hopefully..will not flunk anything this time…confidence level? can’t be determine..coz currently..my brain activity is busy with all the facts..hopefully the night before that..it manage to make me believe that the level is quite high…after this..everything will look bright once again…hopefully…

erm..second day….kick of the day with a bowl of porridge forced right to my face by my dad at a restaurant in cheras..it’s been a long time since i have eat there..the porridge tasted the same…memories flooded in…

arrived half an hour early..damn..i seriously need to adjust my time a bit. to stop arriving early…stop by at the office..to meet the lecturer..end..up she’s nt there..and i have asked for the venue instead for the nxt class..coz i can’t seem to see any of my classmates in any class..and i was like "plz…dun tell me the class have cancelled!!!!!" (this is the BIGGEST DISADVANTAGE for just joining them in 1 subject and why can’t they just stick to a venue…) but today..i met an old friend..he looked VERY surprised seeing me in the Uni..coz..he had not expect that i am still HERE..AND lingering around the campus..so AGAIN..i am explaining to him "the bumpy road of my academic life"  …hehe…at that moment..i came to realised after 2 yrs of knowing him..i didn’t even have his no.and he’s the one..took the initiative to exchange no. with me..REALLY SHAME ON ME…what kind of friend am I?????..and..i still have the guts to tell him the reason i dun have his no. his coz..my friend have his’s so..at that time..i thought ..there’s no need to have his no…(WHAT A STUPID REASON) :0

today is all about radiation…just when my brain is trying to find a connection btw pharmacy n radiation..sure have.. sure have…the lecturer told us..we need to know coz………haha…..it’s been a long time since i have been in morning class..so…feel a bit unadjusted…and a bit blur…at the moment bout the topic..have to start revising it….luckily the class ended almost half an hour earlier..coz i am begginning to lost concentration after "stuffing " too much in the brain.. and a bit tired..this is all my fault…staying up late AGAIN (HAVE TOO…)plus…my brain is still digesting some other things…

so..cheers to my ‘another bored life in Uni’ at least nth teruk happen..hehe..hopefully..there are more interesting things on the way nxt week

first day of first week…everything so familiar..yet so strange…

arrive 15 minutes early…when reach the entrance of the classroom expecting no one but almost all of them are in there…imagine..so quiet..so unlike last time..where the noise could be heard from far away..

usual boring lectures …half an hour of boring introduction which left half  an hour more of lecture with the most interesting topic of all…TADAA!!!ALcohol!!! :0..but STILL have to show a very "up-to-it" face…bombarded by questions and twice i got the honour of being the first to answer it..DAMN….maybe coz..i look so much like the successor of a just -established independent party…;) luckily didnt * off!! (gosh i am such an antisocial)

just when i was wishing that the day will just end it quick and sweet..here comes…’the meeting’ where we  were being exposed to the moral values and responsibilities…as the clock was tickling..more responsibilities..and more and more…and the usual topic..decent appearence..a debate that have been last for ages..and still GOING ON….

just wish that wednesday will arrive and go as quick as possible..

Gosh…is saturday…what am i still doing inf ront of the laptop…suppose to be studying..get it done by tues..coz going to meet the lecturer by than..to discuss bout it..but i am still at the mist of it….still procrastinating…plus have been sick for 2 days..did nothing…sigh…………………………………………………………..

just meet my bro…told him an analogy that i have known..a human analogy which i got it through an experiment on myself….when a human only need to do well in A thing…just 1 thing…do it right..do it well…the procrastinating attitude and the lazy attitude…will make u fail even there is just 1 stuff to do..i get the analogy…coz i am the one that proves the analogy right?

but too bad..i ams till doing it right now..when am i going to hit my head hard NOW!! and get my butt moving…and start doing the right thing with my right mind….