Waiting For Azure - sky..

just came back from granny’s , celebrating the mid autumn festival..as usual..granny will always put lot’s of effort in preparing  dinner for us…not any other usual dinner..a dinner that is enough to feed lots and lots and lots of hungry kids and grandkids..haha…

as usual..the favourite dish of the day..my granny’s favourite soup…we did have some crisis in between..which is..the soup is NOT ENOUGH:)…ahem…i think is bcoz of me and my uncle..hahahahaha..but i swear..he drank more than me..2 large bowls…hehe…

my favourite dish..on this occasion..has been taken out from the menu since last year..sigh…MUSHROOM…which is my granny’s favourite…too…nenek said..since majority of them doesnt like it..so..have to stop cooking..but i still ask for it till now..why is it no one appreciate mushroom?..:0 it’s not like the mushroom we ate is those act as muscarine…cholinergic agonist..(poisoning)haha..where am i?..still talking bt the mushroom..hehe…

the main thing today is..i felt really happy…for the first time…i am laughing not smiling..loudly…on all my granny’s usual sence of humor..dry sence of humor..hehe…well…when being asked again..when am i going off to perth?..i told them..IF I PASS..sigh…can’t be too sure..but granny sort of like promise me that she will visit me in perth

than..came my cousin  bro..the forever ever kid in an adult body..haha…asking me have i received his "dirty" videos?..:0 ya..a role model for me

and he sort of like promise me he will "collect" all his buddies to hunt  a place for me to stay in perth..if i ever move out from hostel..thanks steven…

today i have felt so relax.. letting go of myself..it’s really a good feeling..for once…so now..back here..in my room..snap back to reality…

have been back since 10am..what have i done since than? NOTHING..haha..came back from the chemo test( which i feel is ok..but i did screw up a bit..as usual..no scewing up..not like me..sigh..)had breakfast again..( i got to stop..recently…eat too much..starting to shock me…..though have been climbing up the "UCSI mountain" on purpose almost each morning..can’t help it..if continuing eating..sigh…)

after breakfast..slog on the sofa for hours…watching TV (yup..craving for it..for weeks..not weeks lah..a while..haha) and reading newspaper…shocking news..and more shocking news…nowadays…sigh….

watching the re run of "you, me and dupree" I thought the movie is nice..well..kinda watch it halfway…the last time in kim yen’s great car..on the way for seafood in port klang..but end up..a big dissapointment..not as funny as i think it is..

today..skipping the 4 o’ clock class..yup..wai yee is skipping..FINALLY…yupee!!!hahha…..hope mr.saleem will forgive me for not travelling all the way back to uni for his 1 hour penicillin class…nxt fri..i will show my face..

so..what am i planning to do now? still thinking…but definetly not hitting the books so soon…

this morning woke up..and i dun feel right…so..i just knew it..mst be my "down syndrome" here it goes again…have been so gloomy the whole day..this morning lecture and the "post - lecture" in p.chem class makes my day even worst..

today is all about polymer..well..i did focused on the lecture..how much it goes in..i am not so sure either…half and hour before the class ended..here goes mr.L with his so call lecture on the rights of pharmacist in malaysia..sigh..when he talked bt how we should be those pharmacist whom are capable in all aspect of fields..regardless..the clinical pharm, industrial, research..etc etc…i start to think a lot..

out of sudden i am not so sure why till now..i am still sitting here in the class with this course…i fear and felt that the fact that i have to spent the rest of my life in pharmacy (if i do graduate) really doesn’t excite me at all..truly…i am thinking.." this is not what i want in  my life"

to have such thinking 49 days before the finals and 3 days before the midterm chemo..really sucks and doesn’t help in anything..

but i just can’t help feeling..i don’t feel like continuing anymore…

just finished the pharmacology test 1…and had been relaxing since than..haha..on the day of the test, as usual i felt nauseous…sigh…this time the funny thing is when i was drinking milo..out of sudden it smelt like nutrient broth agar to me..YES..it does..haha..

well..how i did for the test? well..it was okay i think..at least this time..i think i won’t mess it up again…

yesterday..was the most tired day in the whole semester..but a really fun day too…since all of us had just finished a test…it looks like all of us are in "merdeka" mood…especially me lah…another long and boring p.chem lab…the "best thing" is…the lab…ended at 6.40pm..sigh…i was like.."what the heck!!!" ya..we were waiting for the TLC plate to run again….so what we did in the lab?

all of us show the crazy sides of us again..taking a lot a lot of pictures..when Mr. L asked me what pic we were taking..i answered him..the TLC plate..haha..it’s half true also..hehe…

the chemo mid term is coming soon..around nxt week…all of us discussing when to have the test..with lots of reasons between all of us…well..we kinda having a "heated" discussions..it did remind me on my previous classmates…where we all use to have indifferences in schedule for tests and classes..ALWAYS…

so..now..have to work hard for the chemo mid term….yes..starts studying now..end of playing…

it’s been a while since i have updated the blog..well..lot’s of things haad happened…very busy as well….after next week..maybe will be a bit free due to the end of the chemo lab…

with lab rpts…pharmacology test which is coming soon….and studies…is a bit hectic..after the merdeka holiday…i have been a bit lazy in studying..well..still in the holiday..aftermath…hehe…

the pharmacology test which have been changed from MCQ to MCQ and short answers questions..really stress me out a bit..well…though MCQ might not be easy..but..still…we got to choose between the four choices right? well maybe i am freaking myself a bit here…due to the fact that i am quite nervous about my performance this sem…as i told myself..and everyone..i just wan to safely pass all the subjects…and get my butt out of UCSI soon…

recently..we had to hand in the curtin application form and some results transcrips..to get the offer letter…when i am filling in the form..well..is a bit unbelievable that i am finally filling it..and sending my "lame" results to curtin..haha…ya…i have told susan about it..and she told me that i worry too much..and always worry bt useless stuff..haha..that’s me…a worry wart…

yesterday morning..i just came to know that we are losing a classmate soon…sigh…here it goes..another lousy thing that always happen in this pharmacy course…well i truly understand my classmate’s feelings on this..after all i,myself, took a long long long time to recover…it’s kinda sad to know that someone will not make it…though..happy at the same time that the other classmate safely gone through this nightmare..i bet all of us are going to miss our classmate..

well..to the rest of us ..we just have to bite our lips..work hard..and cross our fingers..hopefully we will be able to continue what we have set out to do..all da way through..