Waiting For Azure - sky..

I have been chatting with my cousin sister tonite…after "losing" contact for some time..finally we catched up with each other lives within 2 hours..haha..but is all due to my aunt’s call reminded me to IM my cousin to catch up..ya…so bad of me..

neways…chatting with her makes me feel i am getting older..yup 21 ..and i am feeling old..precisely..is 22..(i am always lying to myself..since my b’day is nt here yet so still 21..hehe) i am not sure why..recently…i am afraid to grow up..is like i am blocking my mind sending signals to me..that…here am i….an adult now..should make decisions and craft my own life and pathway…this is bad i know..but sometimes..i just wish time will freeze at this moment..

suddenly..i am yearning to go back to my old..young life..enjoy those things and experience things that i have missed out..ya….out of sudden..i felt that..my whole life after form 5..almost 95% dedicated to my studies…another 5%..i am not sure where it goes… i truly admire her for all the courage that she had…making her life interesting..while still had a chance..doing the things that she love…pursuing her dreams… which makes me wonder…am i pursuing my dreams as well? nowadays..my one and only hope and dream..is to be happy and the ppl around me are happy as well..to some..it sounds easy..but to the others, like me..to be happy..is one of the hardest thing to pursue..

at last…my much awaited holidays are finally here…i felt that i can breath some fresh air..after suffocating for such a long time..yaya..i know sounded a bit..exaggerating..but..really..i felt free…
how was my performance for the finals? well..fir pharmacology and chemotherapy..were kinda okay..after all..we do have 2 nice and kind hearted lecturers..really thanks to mr.saleem and Dr.Rao….for all the guidance and support..haha…

on the 14th…my classmates and I went to langkawi for a trip…departed from the pudu raya station about 11.45pm….due to the uneasy posture and everything..it was kinda difficult to get some rest during the 7 hour journey..right now..i am kinda phobia with buses………so san ru……….i think we better take plane for out trip nxt time…..luckily ee jiun was able to “entertain” me with his interesting talks for the first few hours..haha..if not..really bored to death..

we reached the jetty around 7-ish..after some photo snapping session..we went to a mamak restaurant nearby for breakfast..the food was bad..the maggi goreng looked and tasted like maggi lembik to me..and the teh tarik was so sweet……sigh..no choice..i just stuffed some into my mouth and swallowed it…
after that…we went to the condo that we were about to stay for 2 nights….with the rented van and car….driven joshua and ee jiun….

we started of the trip with the “cable car adventure”..hehe….it was kinda scary…on the way up…was so quite…and damn high….but it was worth it..coz the scenery was really great..with the cool air….than..we hiked miles and miles away to see the water fall…and hiked again for the “7 telaga” which end up..no telaga at all..what the heck…by the end of the day…my muscle were aching…all over….but…that night..we had a tasty and cheap thai seafood dinner…and wind up the day with drinking session…yup…i got to see…all the “drinking expert” around..haha….chooi leng ended up a bit drunk..and started to laugh non stop..and we were all talking nonsence to sze khei..and force her to reveal “her secrets”hehe..but that gurl..still not drunk yet….so get nothing…i was quite drunk myself…so dizzy..can’t even stand up straight…
the next day..was beach day…well..basically..i just sit back and relax…coz..was really tired…than..we went to the aqua center….and end our last night with the last shopping trip for chocolates…..i am not sure if it is cheap after all..but brought some home….

than..in the 17th..morning..we started off our journey back….well..i can’t wait to go back seriously..and the flu virus just follow back home to kl..sigh…..

here am i now..back here in kl..sick…and worry about the results…since the day mr lokesh told us…2-3 of us…didnt do well..and he is not telling us who..asking us to wait for the official results…so..now..is my most feared waiting time….i hated this feeling..which came haunting me..every sem….but no choice..this is part of my life…

today..i was quite happy..coz..received calls from ed and susan..chatted with dennis and sharlyn yesterday…is been quite a while since i have talked to them….due to our busy schedule…finals..and all other stuff..but at least..i knew…our friendship still going strong..though we have not met for such a long time….guys..hopefully will see u all soon…and share our lives again in perth….

now..planning my appointment with san ru..haha…miss her a lot…i wonder she had brought me anything from her thailand trip..;)