Waiting For Azure - sky..

life is just like a "masked ball"…what do i say so?

well here’s my theory….everyone is wearing a mask…in the same space…interacting with each other..if u met someone…and with masks…u communicate with that person..if it goes well….both of u will ahve a great conversation…great time…and even take off each other mask…so that u guys can get to know each other better n might be friends or even best friends after all..

and if u have started a conversation with a person..again..of course with a mask…and u guys just doesn’t seem to click..no matter what…u guys will never ever take off each other mask..and that’s the end..u guys might continue talking to each other throughout the ball..but..the "mask" or should i say..misunderstanding..misconception…barrier..will forever be there between both of u…u must be asking…what’s the big deal? right? the ball will end..and when it ends..all u need to do is just go back..and forget about that person..plus….the chances of meeting that person again is almost zero percent…and even though u do meet that person again…u might not even know is that person….

but what if…the masked ball that i am attending now…never seems to end…..never truly ends..no matter how hard i try to end it….i have taken down half of my mask to see clearly….coz..i am afraid that with "the mask" i will not be seeing things to "well" or clear enough for me to make judgement..but sometimes..things that see too clear ….is just not a good thing..i have made a bad decision by taking my mask off…really really bad decision…

now…alli wish is just to put back "the mask" and get on with the "party" and be done with it..

Its’ been a month i am unable to connect myself to the cyber world..thanks to my reckless way of handling stuff..hehe..overly used the internet service for the previous month..sigh….but here am i again..BACK!!!

so…how’s my life now? well..just ended my 1 week holiday(which is long long time ago..hehe) and just been through my first test here in curtin..pharmacology..well how it goes? let;s not talk about that so far..i am beggining to adapt to the whether..as in..now..autumn..is getting cold..and you can still see me walking around the campus..without a jacket..unbelievable rite????last time in malaysia..even on on rainy days…i will wear one..hehe..now..surprise surprise…as for my cooking skill…i think it goes very well..hehe…as my "cooking motto" says.."as long as no one gets diarrhoea" oh ya..and i have found my favourite hiding place whenver i feel like getting away..which is such a relief to me…hehe ..here’s the view from my hideout place…pretty cool right?

between all the tests..assignments..classes until 5pm almost everyday..basically this is what perth is all about…and of course at times…will spent some time with susan..and the others..just last week…i have get to experience the karaoke session in perth..at a place call utopia..well…let me tell u…our redbox in malaysia is way better!!!!!!!!!HEHE..but is nice to gather together..coz..is rare for all of us to be there..too bad..some of them need to work…and i get to hear stanley’s incredible singing talent..not bad!! Besides …that…have been attending a few housewarming lately..hehe..yaya…and the most recent one is carolines’ ….with good atmosphere  and good food..i think that was the first time..i felt…"home"..hehe..

and at about the same time…we have celebrated hannah’s and gynette’s b’day too in harbour town….thanks to recommendation from edward..at the coffee club..we got a really special offer on all the drinks..and successfully celebrated their b’day…

Recently…i have realised that things..people and everything around u can changed without u  realizing it…just when u think that everythng is still the same…in fact everything had changed 100% totally….sometimes..i am beginning to feel that i am staring at the same person..yet at a stranger at times…not only towards my closest friend..even to my own family..hearing their voices..video cam with them..hearing them talking about the things happen at home back in malaysia..i felt that i am listening to other peoples’ life…out of sudden..i am beginning to feel that i have been banished to the end of the world..with a bunch of strangers..with no connection to anyone..yeah the feeling of emptiness..sigh…

but..i think right now what is best to stop thinking anything else except my studies..which is my first priority now..regardless what..and try to make myself happier..no more negative feelings and thinking..after all..life is too short to be unhappy..