Waiting For Azure - sky..

It’s 3.15pm…the clock is ticking quicker and quicker each day..i have so many things to do..but here am i staring at the window…not sure is it because of PMS or what..recently..i can’t seem to focus and always feels annoyed over small little stuff and get frustrated easily..sigh…i really miss home..till the point i even call back..just to listen to my mum’s voice..seems like just yesterday..i have boarded the plane back to KL..for holidays..and here am I again….in perth..back here..stuck in my room…with the end of first week…lecture notes to catch up on and project to finish….yeah….just the first week..but seems like i have tonnes of things to do..

I have never miss home so much before..thinking of that…missing all the food…the time which all i did is kick back and relax…going out..shopping…spending time with my family and friends back in malaysia…….and YES..i am counting the days till my next holiday..i think i really need to get bac my study mood and stay focus…for NOW..

nothing much has changed here in perth..in terms of environment…..is still winter here..and i am really looking forward to spring…i am beggining to fill really dull with the weather..as for people…nothing has changed as well….the fact of my "couldn’t - care - less" attitude,does not help either… i have promise myself to loosen up a bit and start handling stuff in a smarter way…seems like at this matter of fact…i can’t seem to do so…last few days..a wise person told me to have a spacious mind and have a heart and mind as vast as space so that i can receive good teachings…when i heard of these..it really hits me hard..coz..since i am in perth..this is the only thing that i can’t seem to find a way to do so……maybe my mind and heart….does only have limited space…or..i have not expand it since long time ago..and now..it got "stuck" and can’t expand anymore….and the list of stupid reasons go on and on..hopefully…with an advice from someone wise..i will be able to grasp it..and do better…

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